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Monday, June 18, 2007

disclaimer

I only wrote the below post because it is a true statement of who I am and to be honest. They say that people can only get to know the you that you let them and this is a very real representation of who I am.


Wedding Photography

So, I've been in a bit of a funk all weekend. Maybe those of you who were around me noticed and just didn't feel like asking or maybe I'm that good at covering it up that no one noticed.

I'm fairly torn by a conflict of interests. On one hand I love to do photography. I love the creative process. I especially like being able to bless my friends who are getting married by giving them far more than they could afford in the way of a wedding photographer. *1  *2

On the other hand, I'm not sure if it is this way for everyone, but for me, when I am photographing anything, as part of the creative process, I in some way, enter into the subject, almost becoming a part of it. Through the lens of a camera I somehow experience at a different level what the subject is like, more than when I just observe. Maybe it's a natrual part of the creative process...I don't know.

Where is the contradiction? When I photograph a wedding, my goal is to bring out everything I can about the relationship and the people and capture that in time using photographs. The people are the physical subject, but the love relationship that they have with each other and who they are as people is the real subject that I am shooting. As I shoot, and this may sound completely strange and almost creepy to some, but in some way I almost share in a taste of the experience of the love that they share with each other and I see what is lovely about each person. To be perfectly honest, as a single, 25 year old person, this is very difficult. I walk away from each wedding feeling as if part of me has been bled dry. To taste in a relationship of this sort and then realize that there is no human relationship like it for me is... quite a trial. Now I know that Christ very much relates, or longs to relate, to us in such a way, and I walk away from each wedding begging for him to fulfill me since there is no human vessel for this type of fullfilment... but it is not easy.

So there it is, if you have felt ill affects of my attitude lately, I apologize. I ask for your forgiveness, and your patience.

 To my friends that are getting married or have recently gotten married, thank you for trusting me with your memories, and I count it a priviledge to get to serve you in such a way.

*1, I really do count it a priviledge, please do not feel hesitant to ask me to photograph your wedding.

*2 I do not presume that I am the best or even in the upper percentiles of photographers, but I do know what it costs to get even a mediocre photographer. Please don't see this statement as a prideful one.


Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Currently Listening
Moulin Rouge
By Various Artists
see related

Roxanne.

That should be my name. Maybe I'll be motivated enough to finally post my comparison between Moulin Rouge and Citizen Cane.

Maybe not.


Sunday, April 22, 2007

Accentuate the Positive

beware the following is better defined as a journey and not a map

I have been indulging in a guilty pleasure resently. Over the last few weeks I have allowed myself to watch the second season of the West Wing. Aaron Sorkin has a mastery of the english laguage that is rarely present in modern visual media. In a recent episode, a poll turns up unfavorable numbers regarding the publics opinion about a certain topic. The initial response by the staff is that they will have to "dial down the rhetoric" about the topic. One voice of wisdom speaks up and replies that they must dial up the attention the topic gets so as to convince those that disagree with them. To prove the point the wise one makes the comparison of a French Revolutionary who sees the masses running one direction and responds, " I must find out where they are running so I can lead them there." The conclusion is that this is a ridiculous attitude for anyone to take in leadership. There were many applications in recent events to which I began to apply this idea.

   Jump to a conversation I had in the car a few days ago. We were talking about CIU and preasures that are place on each other to perform in different ways. For those whose lives are more public than others, the pressure is even greater for if we "trip on stage" everyone sees for the spotlight is on us.

   Jump to the sermon at my church today. The example was given of a duck who was in school and at this school he recieved high marks for swimming average marks for flying, and low marks for running. As a result he was forced to spend extra time working on running. This wore down his webbed feet and caused his grades in swimming to drop from high to average.

    Jump back to visual media. As I think about great motivational moments in movies where a person desperately needed to influence people to act, I saw a connection between all of the above ideas. In Braveheart, when William Wallace needed to motivate the scottsmen to fight, he did not gain success by calling them cowards, holding them at sword point, or threatening them with condemnation. He appealled to their positive qualities. He appealed to their pride as Scottsmen. He appealed to their desires of freedom. Simply put he motivated them by accentuating the positive. 

      Aragorn, at the last battle in front of the Black Gates, did not condemn the men for the fear they felt. Rather he connected with them, "I see in your eyes the same fear that would grip the heart of me." He acknowledged that their was the possibility of failure, "There may be a day..." But he appealed to their bonds of brotherhood and used his own resolve as an encouragement to those present, "...it is not this day."

      Where am I going with this increasingly scattered thought pattern? I feel that we have greatly missed a key concept as we relate to each other. That is, we fail to accentuate the positive. One wrong against us undoes a multitude of good. A person makes a mistake and we no longer show them trust or respect. A person says something or does something they shouldn't and the next time they are on stage leading worship we let that act dominate our thoughts. Rarely on a day-to-day basis will we let people know when we see them doing things right, however we feel the duty to correct them each time we see them act in a way that we feel they shouldn't. Worse, we do not approach them about it but harbor negative thoughts towards them.

   Psychologists have coined the idea positive reinforcement. Now I am not one to claim that negative discipline isn't necessary, but if we forget to be positive, there is little hope of a healthy environment.

   Finally, Jump to a beach where Jesus talks face to face with Peter who had denied that he had ever known Christ in his hour of need. If we are to be living out the life of Christ, shouldn't we also extend the same grace to those who have sinned as Christ extends to Peter?


Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Priorities...

Make sure you get them straight.

drink don't drive

So this was a bumper sticker we saw in Thailand. I think it meant to communicate
when you drink don't drive, but...well you get the picture. (no pun intended)



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